
Dear Sage, This is the saddest song in the world for me...
Never Been To Me
Hey lady, you lady
cursing at your life
you're a discontented mother
and a regimented wife
I have no doubt
you dream about the
things you never do
but I wish someone
had talked to
me like I wanna talk to you
Oh, I've been to Georgia
and California
and anywhere I could run
Took the hand of a preacher man
and we
made love in the sun
But I ran
out of places
and friendly faces
Because I had to be free
I've been to paradise
but I've
never been to me...
Please lady
please lady
don't just walk away
Cause I have this need to tell you
why I'm all alone today
I can see so much of me
still living in your eyes
won't you share a part
of a weary heart that has
lived a million lives
Oh, I've been to Nice
and the isle of Greece
when I sipped champagne on a yacht
I moved like Harlow in Monte Carlo
and showed them what I've got
I've been undressed by kings
and I've seen some things
that a woman ain't s'pose to see
I've been to paradise
but I've never been to me...
Hey, you know what paradise is?
It's a lie a fantasy we created
about people and places
as we like them to be but you
know what truth is? it's that
little baby you're holding
and it's that man you fought with this morning
the same one you are gonna make love to tonight
that's truth that's love
Sometimes I've been to crying for unborn children
that might have made me complete
but I, I took the sweet life
I never knew I'd be bitter from the sweet
I spent my life exploring
the subtle whoring
that costs too much to be free
hey lady I've been to paradise
but I've never been to me...
I've been to paradise but I've never been to me...
Even before I understood the lyrics it used to give me goosebumps everytime it gets aired over the radio. It's about a free spirit/callgirl who was able to have countless adventures with powerful men in the most glorious places on Earth (Greece, Nice, Georgia) and how the road of excess led her to the empty palace of wisdom... and how she desperately wish she could take it all back to lead a simple, decent life.
During my stag party, my friends gave me one. And this song kept on playing in my head. IT saved me, and her. Because even though I had the balls, I didn't have the stomach. I politely refused. Ofcourse it's a huge disadvantage on my part-- everyone in the room, except the girl ofcourse, thought I was gay.
But that's the ennobling power of music. It helps even bastards like me find our humanity lurking within.
Anyway, the beautiful portrait is of Lady Hamilton. She's the mistress of Lord Nelson, the Legendary Admiral who was more beloved by the english people than Diana even when she was still alive. The picture is in the cover of a paperback copy of Wuthering Heights. That's where I first saw her.
I didn't know she was a "Free spirit" too. I found that out the other night when I accidentally came across a wikipedia entry. I was disappointed. For years I didn't know that the most mesmerizing eyes captured on canvass belonged to a girl who probably led a life gloomed by an imperfect past. She was mistress of Lord Nelson, she probably was able to get whatever she wanted in life-- except a second chance (like the lady in the song).
This makes me wonder, had the girl in my stag party looked like Emma Hamilton, would I have refused?
Please visit
www.dennisandlei.blogspot.com
and wish them both well!!!
They will be tying the knot this month.
And No. I was not invited to the stag party.