Tuesday, July 29, 2008

July 29, 1997

Hi Mom!

Eleven years. You've been gone that long. A lot has happened since eleven years ago.

I'm sure your smile crosses your beautiful face when you look down from heaven whenever you see Sage, Sabine and Sadie. I bet you already know if the fourth child is a Boy, huh?

We've had difficult years after you were gone. But things are looking better. These days, I smile a lot more than I used to. When life starts sparring with me, I'm beginning to learn to laugh even while taking it in the chin or gut.

I feel stronger, both physically and mentally. I can do things that I couldn't do before while you were here: I've learned to communicate to a large audience using the media you helped Dad build. I write better and comprehend what I read faster than before. I've begun serving private patients, but unlike Ayheen (Who is a much gifted MD) I've also entered public service (but not as a politico, thank God). I can even do push-ups with Sabine and Sadie at my back (I can only do 20 with Sage).

I still want to be a better person. My anger and rage, I still try to keep them in check.

I still wrestle with my inner demons. But these days, thanks to Ayheen, I feel the sweetest joys. I also bleed from the deepest pains.

Most days, the joys outweigh the pain...

But not Today. Not this morning.

July 29, 2008.

5 comments:

dhes said...

:)

am sure your mom's proud of you TK!

she raised you well...

atticus said...

tk, may temper ka pa sa lagay na iyan? hehe.

labs ka nun. i used to feel my dad's presence. i used to dream of him when i had problems. then i realized i wasn't giving him rest. so i started telling him i can manage na, and kept praying he'd go to heaven na.

i think he's there na.

Penny Lane said...

"I still wrestle with my inner demons. But these days, thanks to Ayheen, I feel the sweetest joys."
-->awww...i believe that you know you're in a beautiful relationship when your partner makes you feel you want to become a better man.

tin-tin said...

sabi ng mom mo.. proud daw siya sayo :)

TK said...

Dhes, JJ, Sexy1, Pretty1:

Thanks, Bro.

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