Tuesday, July 29, 2008

July 29, 1997

Hi Mom!

Eleven years. You've been gone that long. A lot has happened since eleven years ago.

I'm sure your smile crosses your beautiful face when you look down from heaven whenever you see Sage, Sabine and Sadie. I bet you already know if the fourth child is a Boy, huh?

We've had difficult years after you were gone. But things are looking better. These days, I smile a lot more than I used to. When life starts sparring with me, I'm beginning to learn to laugh even while taking it in the chin or gut.

I feel stronger, both physically and mentally. I can do things that I couldn't do before while you were here: I've learned to communicate to a large audience using the media you helped Dad build. I write better and comprehend what I read faster than before. I've begun serving private patients, but unlike Ayheen (Who is a much gifted MD) I've also entered public service (but not as a politico, thank God). I can even do push-ups with Sabine and Sadie at my back (I can only do 20 with Sage).

I still want to be a better person. My anger and rage, I still try to keep them in check.

I still wrestle with my inner demons. But these days, thanks to Ayheen, I feel the sweetest joys. I also bleed from the deepest pains.

Most days, the joys outweigh the pain...

But not Today. Not this morning.

July 29, 2008.


dhes said...


am sure your mom's proud of you TK!

she raised you well...

atticus said...

tk, may temper ka pa sa lagay na iyan? hehe.

labs ka nun. i used to feel my dad's presence. i used to dream of him when i had problems. then i realized i wasn't giving him rest. so i started telling him i can manage na, and kept praying he'd go to heaven na.

i think he's there na.

Penny Lane said...

"I still wrestle with my inner demons. But these days, thanks to Ayheen, I feel the sweetest joys."
-->awww...i believe that you know you're in a beautiful relationship when your partner makes you feel you want to become a better man.

tin-tin said...

sabi ng mom mo.. proud daw siya sayo :)

TK said...

Dhes, JJ, Sexy1, Pretty1:

Thanks, Bro.

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To Sage, Sabe, Sade & 3Stan